Whoa…It’s been a while. Specifically Oct 2012 since I was wrote. In that time I got a job promotion (yee!) spent a month in Paris, contemplated a move to LA, got 2 (!) more tattoos, moved out of a shitty apartment into an amazing one and oh, yeah….broke up with the love of my life.
A lot has gone on since October, but happy to be back!
There is nothing more thrilling then developing film and discovering memories from months or years ago. I love it.
I hate that we live in a world where women being harassed on the street is to be expected.
I hate that men openly turn around and stare at my breast when I am getting a seat on the bus, walking down the street, at work.
I HATE that men act like i should be appreciative of the fact that they are whistling, saying vulgar things, checking me out- going as far as saying to me: “BITCH IM TALKING TO YOU”
I hate that when I have said something back to men, I immediately stop in fear because I know I have put myself in some form of potential danger.
I hate that when I rant about this to guy friends they all say the same thing: “Well. that’s kind of what happens sometimes”.
NO. That is not an acceptable answer.
Just because I am a woman, I shouldn’t have to act like I am so fucking grateful to have a man saving vulgar things to me on the street and take it.
I shouldn’t have to feel that because I go out and drink with friends that I am putting myself at risk for rape, but when a man does it its no big deal.
I shouldn’t be made to feel bad for wearing tights and skirts because “I am bringing that kind of attention to myself” and “causing men to look at me and want to rape me”
That is NOT okay.
Yet, that is what we have been taught as women. We are taught from a young age that we are raped, sexually assaulted and harassed on a daily life-to-life basis because it is OUR fault for being pretty, our fault for wearing a dress or lipstick or going out late.
I AM SICK AND TIRED of this and I don’t think it’s right. We need to change as a society because we are projecting this image onto our younger females.
I don’t want my younger sister to have to deal with what I have to deal with for being a single female and I don’t think any other female should either.
This needs to end NOW.
I just accidentally walked onto Woody Allen’s new set.
I met him. He is small and also was looking at my boobs when he said hi.
Cate Blanchett was also there and said hi. (she’s talllllll)
Also I acted like a complete idiot and then a 12 year old delirious Justin Beiber fan then back to freaking out- in front of him.
Okay I got that out of my system.
The most amazing part of my job- the community I work with.
The worst- having to tell someone they have HIV……
My homeless clients are having more sex than I have since January.. *tina groan*
My coworker and I went to dinner tonight and naturally had a bottle of wine each, BUT we shared the lobster.